"I hold myself as accountable as him, all this time later. When I now realize I came in like a hurricane. No warning, with passion, and demands. Wreckage. He kept up quite well, tempered me down a bit. Then he just decided to let me go on the path of partnership alone.
I blame him. I blame him for giving me high hopes then never filling the potential.
I want to cross him off the list of people who occupied my heart. I want to wipe the slate clean. No one loved me.
I learned that love isn’t just saying the words. “I love you” wasn’t a balm over your neglect, or my desires.
I was and am bewitched with the idea that there is solely one person that my happiness depends on. Before it was another, but it is me.
Now, I know if someone can make me nearly as happy as I can make myself, and I can make that someone nearly as happy as they make their self then there in lies the beginning of something.
Now, until then, I’ll just work on all the things that make me happy over here.”
I could not have said this any better myself.
We’re all adults here. Let’s act like it.